I think I'm starting to understand what this means.
Sometimes I worry there's something wrong with me. Sometimes I worry I don't actually feel things like regular people do. Often I'm watching the world rather than actually living in it. It's not just that I feel distant from the world. The thing that worries me is that a lot of times, I feel distant from myself. I watch myself like I'd watch an actor in a movie, but I don't feel anything.
I think I need to be more relaxed but I'm afraid, afraid of being alone, again. Trust, is the main word, and now I should be ready to keep running to this new kind of light. Thank people that are by my side now.